Shortly after it was announced Tuesday that he just missed out on induction into the Baseball Hall of Fame, Curt Schilling posted a letter on Facebook regarding his candidacy, saying that he would ask the Hall to remove his name from the ballot in 2022.
“I’ll defer to the [V]eterans [C]ommittee and men whose opinions actually matter and who are in a position to actually judge a player,” he wrote. “I don’t think I’m a [H]all of [F]amer as I’ve often stated but if former players think I am then I’ll accept that with honor.”
Schilling received 71.7 percent of the vote, falling short of the 75 percent required for induction. No players will be inducted through voting in 2021. The other two top vote-getters, Barry Bonds and Roger Clemens, fell far short of the mark.
Schilling wrote that the letter, a portion of which is shared below, was sent to the Hall of Fame and that he wanted to share it publicly.
“I have always been fine with anyone knowing how I feel and what I think,” he wrote.
In the letter, Schilling said that he has “never said or acted in any capacity other than being a good teammate,” and wrote that claims from the media do not “hold merit.”
“I’ve never hit a woman, driven drunk, done drugs, PEDs or otherwise, assaulted anyone or committed any sort of crime,” he wrote. “But I’m now somehow in a conversation with two men who cheated, and instead of being accountable they chose to destroy others lives to protect their lie,” he wrote, in reference to Bonds and Clemens.
Hostile comments on social media damaged Schilling’s candidacy. Some writers who had voted for the former Red Sox pitcher in the past left him off the ballot in 2021.
Schilling has also used his platforms to promote the QAnon conspiracy theory and, earlier this month, supported the insurgent attack on the U.S. Capitol.
In 2016, Schilling wrote: “Ok, so much awesome here” on a Twitter photo of a Donald Trump supporter wearing a T-shirt with the words “Rope. Tree. Journalist. Some assembly required.”
In his letter on Facebook, Schilling decried the media once more, writing that it “has created a Curt Schilling that does not and has never existed. It’s one of the things that has allowed me to sleep at night.”
Here’s a portion of the letter:
“I want to share with everyone the letter I wrote to the folks at the Hall of Fame yesterday. They’ve been otherworldly kind and gracious in every way possible and I’ll be forever grateful to them and for that. This was written privately and for their eyes only but I have always been fine with anyone knowing how I feel and what I think.
“Hey guys. Couple things. First off I am not sure I can express my level of gratitude and sincere appreciation at the graciousness, kindness and desire on all your parts to help me navigate this process. I can say at this point I am mentally done. I know math and I know trends and I know I will not attain the 75% threshold for induction. As I’ve stated often over the past years to those I’ve spoken with in my heart I am at peace.
“Nothing, zero, none of the claims being made by any of the writers hold merit. In my 22 years playing professional baseball in the most culturally diverse locker rooms in sports I’ve never said or acted in any capacity other than being a good teammate. I’ve certainly been exposed to racism and sexism and homophobia as it’s part of who human beings are. I’ve played with and talked with gay teammates. I’ve played with wife beaters, adulterers, assaulted, drug addicts and alcoholics. I’ve never hit a woman, driven drunk, done drugs, PEDs or otherwise, assaulted anyone or committed any sort of crime.
“But I’m now somehow in a conversation with two men who cheated, and instead of being accountable they chose to destroy others lives to protect their lie. I will always have one thing they will forever chase. A legacy. Whatever mine is as a player it will be the truth, and one I earned for better or worse. Having said all that the media has created a Curt Schilling that does not and has never existed. It’s one of the things that has allowed me to sleep at night.
“Not an ounce of that is to absolve myself of sin, Lord knows I’ve committed my share and will do so again. Never malicious, never to willfully or intentionally hurt another person. I was 100% accountable and still am. Even the thought of responding to claims of ‘nazi’ or ‘racist’ or any other term so watered down and rendered meaningless by spineless cowards who have never met me makes me ill. In modern times responding to such drivel somehow validates the claim. My love of this country has always been worn on my sleeve. My desire to do the right thing and be a good person has driven most of my life choices. I stood at my locker 400+ times after my starts and took every question and answered honestly. Those people who stood there asking the questions KNOW what they are claiming is untrue yet they quote, re-quote and link to one another story after story that began as lies and grew into bigger ones.
“The game has made it clear it does not want me back and that’s fine, the game owes me exactly nothing. It gave a billion more times than it took and I’ll forever be deeply in debt to it. My desire to work with and teach young men the art of pitching will be tucked away.
“But as I watch my wife battle cancer and go through the grueling soul crushing process of chemotherapy and see her hurt every time some idiot writes another hit piece linking to other hit pieces, none rooted in any sort of truth but rather story after story of ‘what he meant was’ and ‘what he’s saying is’ and ‘that’s a dog whistle for’ all the while providing zero actual acts or quotes of the claims being made I can’t help but to go into deep conversation with my father. ‘Never live your life trying to impress people you don’t know, or who don’t know you’ and what that means in todays world. Being an aspie [sic] has allowed it to flow like water off a ducks back. But to see the hurt I’m causing my wife and to have my children read and hear this stuff and then look at me and try and match a public ‘image’ that in no way aligns with the man their father is , has been something I never considered.
“I do not and never will ‘scoreboard’ the cowards but if I’m not mistaken only Jamie Moyer and I ‘swept’ the humanitarian awards players can win. Awards meant to define who the true man is apart from the player. These same writers voted on those awards. Do those awards and 22 years absent of a single validating event to support their claims define me? Or does a ‘what he meant to say’ tweet?
“I’ve chosen Arizona as the team I would have represented if I had been inducted and even though I heard someone there is calling for the DBacks front office to ‘meet’ should the induction happen I’ll stand with that decision as I know Mr Kendrick to be an honorable and kind man. Should that change it most certainly would be the Phillies. What Mr Henry and Mr Werner did to my family and I in my final year has been forgiven but will never be forgotten. One thing this text certifies is that I talk way too much but I know I was never a yes/no answer guy.
“I apologize for the insane length of this but I guess I needed an outlet and I sure as hell don’t want to dump any of this on a woman who just ended her 3rd chemo and provides the reasons I eat sleep and breathe everyday. Why the text? If by some miracle this would happen I have zero interest in taking questions from the very group who lined up to destroy my character with no regard to anyone in my life or being held to account for their lies. I would and will talk with the guys on the MLB network if you want that, but no one else.
“I wanted to reiterate this final point. I will not participate in the final year of voting. I am requesting to be removed from the ballot. I’ll defer to the veterans committee and men whose opinions actually matter and who are in a position to actually judge a player. I don’t think I’m a hall of famer as I’ve often stated but if former players think I am then I’ll accept that with honor. Again, I won’t be able to thank you for your kindness and sincere interest in this process as it pertains to me. I’ll be forever grateful. God Bless you all again and one more time a final thank you for all your efforts to help my family and I.”