Update: Michelle Carter was found guilty of involuntary manslaughter on June 16, 2017, in the suicide of Conrad Roy.
A new HBO documentary, “I Love You, Now Die,” airs on July 9, 2019.
TAUNTON — Michelle Carter encouraged her friend Conrad Roy III, sometimes aggressively, to kill himself, in a bizarre and disturbing series of texts introduced by prosecutors at Carter’s trial.
Throughout 2014, the two debated means of committing suicide, discussing the level of pain one might endure and the likelihood that the attempt would be successful, according to the text messages shown in court.
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But closer in time to when Roy killed himself, the conversations were about Roy ending his own life, conversations in which Carter sometimes expressed annoyance that he was still alive.
In addition to the text messages below, Carter and Roy exchanged Facebook messages.
Roy: “I keep regretting the past. It’s getting me upset.”
Carter: “Take your life?”
Roy: “You think I should?”
Carter: “You’re not gonna kill yourself. You say all the time you want to but look, you’re still here. You don’t wanna die, you don’t want the pain to stop.”
Roy: “That’s true, I just don’t know what to do w myself.”
Carter: “We should do something fun on Tuesday.”
The following day, the conversation continued.
Carter: “Are you gonna do it tonight?”
Roy: “I’m gonna try.’’
Carter: “How hard are you gonna try?”
Roy: “Hard.”
Carter: “What way?”
Roy: “IDK LOL.”
Carter: “I don’t think you are really serious about this.”
Roy: “What if suffocation doesn’t work?”
Carter: “How bad do you want? Because if you want it bad you should succeed.”
Roy: “I wish I could hold your hand through it.”
Carter: “I’d hold your had and cry with you and tell you how much I love you.”
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For several days, Carter pressured Roy about killing himself, text messages show, and in one exchange, Carter expressed frustration that he was still alive.
Roy: “Sorry I took sleeping pills & fell asleep.”
Carter: “So it didn’t work? You said you wanted this bad. I knew you weren’t going to try hard. I feel like such an idiot. You didn’t ever do anything. You lied about the whole thing. You said you were gonna go to the woods I thought you really wanted to die. But apparently you don’t. I feel played and stupid.”
Roy: “I’ll prove you wrong.”
Roy backed off killing himself again, triggering a harsh response from Carter.
Carter: “See that’s what I mean you keep pushing it off.”
He replied by saying he wanted to die quickly and with minimal pain.
Carter: “That’s why you have to do something quick that will end without having to worry about the pain.”
Roy tried to overdose on Nyquil and Tylenol, both of which are over-the-counter medications.
The next day, Carter brought up suicide again.
Carter: “Well you gonna do it tonight or not?”
Roy: “I don’t think I have it in me.”
Carter: “I knew it!”
Roy: “I’m too scared. You’re right I don’t have it in me.”
Carter: “Just swallow all of them . . . You purposefully took a low dosage because you don’t wanna die.”
She urged Roy to take 10 Benadryls and a bottle of Tylenol.
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Carter: “I still don’t think you want to do this so you’ll have to prove me wrong.”
After Roy expressed reservations once again, Carter made some suggestions.
Carter: “Hang yourself, jump off a building, stab yourself. I don’t know. There’s lots of ways.”
Two days later came this exchange:
Roy: “How was your day?”
Carter: “When are you doing it?”
Roy committed suicide on July 12, 2014, by carbon monoxide poisoning after he connected a generator to his truck’s exhaust. Prosecutors alleged that Carter was on the phone with him at the time.
Carter was found guilty of involuntary manslaughter in Bristol Juvenile Court on Friday.
Jan Ransom and John Ellement contributed to this report. Ransom can be reached at jan.ransom@globe.com. Follow her on Twitter at @Jan_Ransom. Ellement can be reached at ellement@globe.com. Follow him on Twitter @JREbosglobe.